I'm easily distracted...

I've at least set up the page for the blog. So that's a start. I get points for that. Right?

I also have a first entry to said blog. So I can now cross a few more things off of my to-do list...

I have an itinerary that is half finished, which was supposed to have been finished already.

But here I am, accomplishing something else instead.

As most of you already know, I'm leaving in a few days (six to be exact) to head off on my big adventure, that I thought up all by myself. Yep. All by myself. That seems to be a running theme with this trip...

I've gone through many different emotional states about this. One minute, I'm thrilled to answer questions about the trip when someone new gets word about what I'm planning to do. The next minute, I'm having a slight panic attack while thinking about all the things I still need to do or all the people I should visit before takeoff. I get excited about seeing friends and family along the way, meeting new people, visiting the beach for my birthday, and mostly having 19 days to explore. I've even had thoughts about backing out on the whole trip, but I've come so far with the plans and involved so many people already that I feel obligated (at least to myself) to go through with it. I wouldn't want to disappoint anyone along the way, who is looking forward to my visit. But I especially don't want to look back and regret not doing this, either.

I'll be visiting the Rocky Mountains, Old Faithful, the Space Needle, the Redwoods, the Golden Gate Bridge, the Grand Canyon and many, many more.

"Blah, blah, blah."

I honestly feel like people should be tired of hearing about this. But the good news for those people is that I'm leaving soon! And hopefully that means I can actually relax and enjoy the trip I've been planning for months.

Sure I'll be exploring the land, but I've always seen this as my big chance for some much needed self-exploration. I want to find myself, find something I love, and hopefully find something that will change my life. I don't expect everyone to understand what I mean, when I say that. But it isn't necessarily about finding a place that I'll fall in love with, drop everything for, and move my life there. That would be great, though, don't get me wrong. I'm looking for motivation, a spark, a revelation, an idea, an understanding, something...anything really. At times, I don't even know what I'm looking for.

I don't want to be a college graduate that has no idea what to do with their life. I know that there's plenty of time to figure that out, but this trip will hopefully get me started in some kind of direction.

I will try to keep posts a little more focused from here on out, but you saw the title of this post. So you have been forewarned.

That reminds me! I’ve just started a journal of the funny and/or weird things that friends and I have said, so I need to go write a few more entries in that before I forget them.

Then I’ll finish the itinerary...maybe.